“The trouble is, depression doesn’t come with handy symptoms like spots and a temperature, so you don’t realize it at first. You keep saying “I’m fine” to people when you’re not fine. You think you SHOULD be fine. You keep saying to yourself: “Why aren’t I fine?”
― Sophie Kinsella,
Rating: 4/5 Stars
An anxiety disorder disrupts fourteen-year-old Audrey’s daily life. She has been making slow but steady progress with Dr. Sarah, but when Audrey meets Linus, her brother’s gaming teammate, she is energized. She connects with him. Audrey can talk through her fears with Linus in a way she’s never been able to do with anyone before. As their friendship deepens and her recovery gains momentum, a sweet romantic connection develops, one that helps not just Audrey but also her entire family.
I could not hold off on a review for this book. I just finished it 5 minutes ago and I had to get my thoughts down. It is that good you guys. I flew through this book in about 2 hours and I’m left reeling because of how good it is.
I picked up this book probably about a year ago. Like some of you may know I try to avoid reading synopsis again after initially purchasing the book. Therefore, by the time I got around to reading it I had no expectations. Booktubers and book bloggers alike have stated how much they’ve liked this book, but other than that I had no idea what I was going to get out of this book.
So, what did I get out of this book? This book feels important. It takes on the tough topic of mental health. It is a topic that is stigmatized in our current culture. Yet this book works in a wonderful way in that depression and anxiety aren’t treated as something that can be fixed over night. Nor are they represented as things that make a person less than.
Audrey, like many people in everyday life, has struggles as a result of her anxiety and depression. However, she is more than that. She is a teenage girl who is intelligent, kind, funny, and loving. She enjoys reading and video games and has crushes. She’s normal. Her mental health issues definitely create obstacles in her life. But they don’t define her.
Sophie Kinsella did a wonderful job of crafting this book. The focus of the book is not to “fix” Audrey. Instead it’s to help Audrey overcome obstacles and live a full life despite her mental health issues. Something that truly stuck out to me was a quote from Audrey’s mother in the book. She stated, “But, Audrey, that’s what life is. We’re all on a jagged graph. I know I am. Up a bit, down a bit. That’s life.” I found it to be a beautiful way to acknowledge Audrey’s depression without minimizing it. Depression doesn’t have a magic cure and I’m glad that Kinsella pointed that out in this novel.
This book was beautifully written. I completely adored the story and the characters. It had a way of making me laugh audibly right before it moved me to tears. I would highly recommend picking up this book. I can’t wait to read more by Sophie Kinsella.